Lesson 11

To Be Loved by Him

It was a Saturday evening. I saw a vision of many many black people in a large tent all hungry for God, hands raised to receive Him. I felt I had heard God say, ‘Speak simply and I will meet them where they are.’ I thought, ‘I must respond to Him and go.’ Never yet had I ever spoken in any place other than a church. Little did I know then that this vision was to come true soon, but the Lord had much to teach me, much to show me and to start right then and there is just like God. He is a ‘now’ God, for He lives outside time so His time is the now, everlasting now.

It was good to come into His presence, to rest at His glorious feet. I felt well stretched that evening having taught all day and driven back from Paris the day before. To come into His glorious presence: I live for this, for when His presence touches you He makes you whole, full, content and full of joy.

I wrote, ‘That He should come to meet us here.’ Why did I write this down? To savour His presence longer, to remember it, in case He may speak to me. ‘Is this okay?’ I asked.

I felt the Lord answer me, ‘Yes, and I will speak to you, for you are no longer your own, for you are no longer to make your own decisions or go your own way, but to seek Me and My way.’

‘Please guide me, Lord. Which way do You wish me to go?’ I replied.

‘All I have asked of you is to spend time in My presence. I need to prepare you and then I will speak to you and guide you. Learn to wait on Me, then you shall also move with Me.’

‘Yes,’ I responded, in awe. ‘I also know there is sacrifice in serving. Sorry I talk too much.’

‘True strength comes from Me, not yourself. That is why you get tired. Learn to draw on My strength and that only comes when you spend time with Me. You also need to learn to love My people with My heart and you can only do this when you draw close to My heart. Do this now.’

I did and felt I was no longer my own. I belonged to God. His heart is far greater than mine, with rivers of compassion and love for His people flowing from it. I have no heart compared to His, I have to draw on His, to even begin to think of it.

‘And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it, You shall love your neighbour as yourself. On these two commandments depend all the law and the prophets.”’

(Matthew 22:37–40)

On Monday morning I went down to have breakfast and the Lord said, ‘Put it back. You will be going on a fast.’

‘OK, Lord.’ I put the cereal back and spent the day with the Lord.

It was on Tuesday morning, the second day of the fast, that I spoke to the Lord saying, ‘Lord, no one else has ever spoken to me like You do; such glorious words, such wisdom, such gentleness.’

Then He said, ‘For it is I that created you. No one else can have the love for what He has created, other than the Creator, and you are receiving this love, therefore you are able to also live it. Yes, you are mine and as you receive the workings of My hand upon your life, so you shall be able to absorb even more of My love and radiate even more of My love also towards My people, whom I have also created.’

On Tuesday evening I spoke with the Lord again. ‘The incredible joy of knowing You, to feel Your love well deep within and feel that somehow You even love me. How can this be, Lord Jesus?’

And He answered, ‘For this I created you, for as I walked with Adam and Eve in the garden, so too I walk and talk with you. I created man for a love relationship with Myself, but few have found it. I rejoice in you, My child, that you are finding it, for I am truly a God of love.’

‘This is so glorious,’ I replied.

He said, ‘I will show you even more. Absorb My love, My child, for I love you and want you to receive My love.’

I responded, ‘This is like a touch of heaven. You have touched me, Lord, and I feel I have touched You. Never have I ever felt such incredible love, not ever.’

He then said, ‘My love is greater than any love the world has ever known. It is a love I have reserved for My children as they seek Me. Yes, My child, and you have received it. This produces incredible heavenly joy.’

On the third day of the fast, Wednesday, I woke up excited. The incredible joy still within me contrasted with the background noise of the world. I came straight back into His glorious, incredible, wonderful presence, experiencing a new dimension of worship – that of a pouring out something like incense into a misted pool before Him. I came into a holy silence. It was like being in two worlds at once, spiritually closer to Jesus than ever before, yet aware of the world around.

I heard Him speak, ‘So is your worship before Me as the ointment poured forth on My feet by Mary. Yes, My child, there are also two dimensions of worship, that of worship at My feet and also that of worship in action in the world that you live in. That of serving My people comes out of your worship in My presence. Worship is likened to a giving out of yourself, a giving out of love, to Me. Worship is also a giving out of yourself to others for My sake in leading them to Myself and serving them. Both I receive as worship unto Myself.’

I felt I was receiving the life-changing ointment of His love and Holy Spirit within me. Yes, I needed a lot of changing and I wanted the Lord to change me. I felt His love seeping into my mind and thinking, into my ideas and values and I yielded to it. It was as pure gold, more precious than anything I had ever encountered. I realised that my relationship with God was far more important than anything I could do for Him, for out of our relationship with God is the essence of life and ministry. There is no joy more glorious, nothing better than the Lord communicating to us His precious truths into our spirits. Nothing could compare with His love.

‘This is not fasting, this is feasting. I am overwhelmed with Your joy and Your love. I can barely contain it,’ I said to the Lord.

He replied and said, ‘This is My pleasure to give you My love. Receive it, My child, for it will change you. It shall renew you and it shall energise new life in My service. It will flow naturally and easily, for My love shall radiate through you, without effort of yourself. You shall simply yield to Me and I shall do it. You shall become an open channel of My love for this is the ministry that I will bless you with.’

‘To live by Your love? You are transforming me. I need to find strength daily in Your love to do it,’ I thought.

‘For the love of Christ controls us, because we are convinced that one has died for all; therefore all have died. And he died for all, that those who live might live no longer for themselves but for him who for their sake died and was raised.’

(2 Corinthians 5:14–15)

‘and hope does not disappoint us, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit which has been given to us.’

(Romans 5:5)

‘As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you; abide in my love.’

(John 15:9)

‘I in them and thou in me, that they may become perfectly one, so that the world may know that thou hast sent me and hast loved them even as thou hast loved me.’

(John 17:23)

On Thursday, the fourth day of the fast, the Lord called me into His glorious presence. The scriptures of yesterday were confirmed and I was encouraged by what the Lord did for me yesterday. The spoken word and written word had become one in my heart, the reality of our living God.

I tried to pray for other things, but seemed to rather get caught up in worship and filled with incredible joy. He had touched my heart and it was burning with great joy.

Again the Lord spoke: ‘For this I have called you and yes, I am doing a new thing in your heart. I am preparing you for My service, for how can you serve Me if you do not know Me? How can you proclaim that which you have not experienced? Only contact with Myself can prepare you, can energise you, can teach you, can equip you, for it is I that will send you out and no other. As you go out empowered by My Spirit, then you will see results, not as a result of your ministry, but as a result of My workings through your life. You are to become a channel of My love and power to My people whom I also love. Only as you give yourself to Me in total love and trust can I fill you with My beauty to then give out to others. All other needs will just fall into place. Come unto Me, My child, and receive of My love.’

‘Jesus answered him, “If a man loves me, he will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him. He who does not love me does not keep my words; and the word which you hear is not mine but the Father’s who sent me. These things I have spoken to you, while I am still with you. But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things, and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. You heard me say to you, ‘I go away, and I will come to you.’ If you loved me, you would have rejoiced, because I go to the Father; for the Father is greater than I.”’

(John 14:23–28)

This scripture suddenly meant so much to me for I felt that I had been with Jesus and He was now bringing the fast to an end and I didn’t want it to end. I also didn’t want to lose that glorious contact with Him. I felt like crying at the ending of the fast – or had it been more a feast?

Then He said, ‘Go, My child, for I am with you always. You need to move out now, but know that I move out with you. I am still with you and I will still reveal myself to you, for this love relationship with you is only the beginning. I have much more in store for you, My child, and that is why you also love Me.’

Anybody can have a love relationship with the Lord. That is why I have shared with you these special four days of fasting. With each of us He will reveal himself differently, for we are all so different in personalities and callings. To some He will share Himself through pictures, or visions, or ideas. He does not have to reveal Himself through words as He did for me. For some people He may simply reveal Himself to them in silence. Each way the Lord reveals Himself to us is as precious as the other and as meaningful to each individual.

Yes, this fast was a beautiful four days with Jesus, but it has not stopped there, it has carried on and His words to me have already come true in my life, which further confirms to me that I did hear Him speak to me and those four days were very real, very life-changing and have produced much fruit in my life. Though I have been criticised about hearing God, and you may be criticised as well, we need to look at the fruit in our lives. All I know is it is as biblical to hear God as it is to speak to Him, which is why I wrote the chapter on ‘Divine Communication’ and included many scriptures.

The other joy of hearing God speak to you is that it confirms Scripture. If it does not, then those words are not of God. It also makes the Word personal for us and encourages us so greatly. I have only shared with you my four day fast, as an example of hearing God, responding to Him, growing in Him and deepening our relationship with Him.

There are many more scriptures on love. Here are some others that the Lord showed me during those four days:

‘See what love the Father has given us, that we should be called children of God.’

(1 John 3:1)

‘Therefore be imitators of God, as beloved children. And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.’

(Ephesians 5:1)

‘And it is my prayer that your love may abound more and more, with knowledge and all discernment, so that you may approve what is excellent, and may be pure and blameless for the day of Christ, filled with the fruits of righteousness which come through Jesus Christ, to the glory and praise of God.’

(Philippians 1:9–10)

‘but showing steadfast love to thousands of those who love me and keep my commandments.’

(Deuteronomy 5:10)

‘To him who loves us and has freed us from our sins by his blood.

(Revelation 1:5)

‘Yea, he loved his people;

all those consecrated to him were in his hand;

so they followed in thy steps,

receiving direction from thee.’

(Deuteronomy 33:3)

When we obey His commandments and live our lives in obedience to Him, then we receive even more of His love.

‘he will love you, bless you, and multiply you.’

(Deuteronomy 7:13)

‘But, as it is written,

“What no eye has seen, nor ear heard,

nor the heart of man conceived,

what God has prepared for those who love Him.”’

(1 Corinthians 2:9)

‘I will most gladly spend and be spent for your souls. If I love you the more, am I to be loved the less?’

(2 Corinthians 12:15)

‘for the Father himself loves you, because you have loved me and have believed that I came from the Father.’

(John 16:27)

‘But if one loves God, one is known by him.’

(1 Corinthians 8:3)

‘But God, who is rich in mercy, out of the great love with which he loved us.’

(Ephesians 2:4)

When we spend more and more time in and receiving God’s love, it enables us to walk in love until we can say like Paul in Galatians 2:20:

‘I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me; and the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.’

When we are filled up with the love of God we will walk differently, we will think differently. God’s love and compassion will give us a new understanding for people, a new patience, more kindness. We will walk with a new meekness and lowliness produced by His greatness. The more I know Him and His wonderful works that I see Him do, the more I want to get down to the floor in worship and awe. I see Him as greater and greater. The way He is in control of all things, He enables us to make the right contacts to help others. He heals, sets free, delivers people, with just so much love and compassion. He takes us at our word and even uses us to bless others. Yes and more, for it is not how much we know or who we are that matters, only that we are available and willing. God will use anyone who will make themselves available and who is willing to obey. His love changes us into His beloved people. His love enables all of us to become conquerors in this world of ours. God’s love connects us to God, which no one can ever separate us from.

‘No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.’

(Romans 8:37–39)

It is then that we can live out this great love for others, for it is not how much we do, but the amount of love with which we do it. It is not how much we live out our life for God, but rather the love that God is able to live out through us. It is one thing to receive God’s love within, it is another thing to live out God’s love towards others.

Yes, we want God’s love to fill our hearts, but do we want to love others with it? God pours His love into our hearts, that we may also pour out God’s love towards others. Therefore as we receive God’s love, a dying to self has also to take place, that His love for others may also take place. So we receive God’s love. We let it saturate us, until we live in it twenty-four hours a day. His love begins to break down our hard crusts. It begins to melt our ice-clad hearts. It begins to soften our world taught minds, until it can even show through our eyes in tears, until it changes us into a true child of God, who can feel as He would feel, see as He would see, do as He would do.

Suddenly our priorities have changed. We become so full of the love of God and also love for others, that we become fully His and the outworking of His love becomes part of us, natural, normal, a pleasure, a joy.

We shall become joined to Him with everlasting cords of love, invisible yet stronger than steel. These cords of love that God may have with millions of people in heaven and on earth bind us to Him for all eternity; nothing can ever separate us (Romans 8:38–39). They also give us access to Him in undivided attention, even as you would connect to a friend with a mobile phone.

‘They shall ask the way to Zion, with faces turned toward it, saying, “Come, let us join ourselves to the Lord in an everlasting covenant which will never be forgotten.”’

(Jeremiah 50:5)

‘I led them with cords of compassion,

with the bands of love.’

(Hosea 11:4)

Through these cords of compassion, bands of love, we become united to Him as in 1 Corinthians 6:17:

‘But he who is united to the Lord becomes one spirit with him.’

First we join ourselves to the Lord then He leads us with cords of compassion, with bands of love, then we become united to Him, becoming as one spirit with Him. Then He goes even further in Hosea 2:19–20:

‘And I will betroth you to me forever; I will betroth you to me in righteousness and in justice, in steadfast love, and in mercy. I will betroth you to me in faithfulness; and you shall know the Lord.’

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